I need clarification. any thoughts?

[IoBoI]

Cut of a different plaster, from a far distant pasture, once corrupted by the earth, now I journey back to my place of birth, once lost, stirred in stagnation frozen as frost on the blades of grass and waves of aghast.

[BeN1]

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[IoBoI]

Too much introspection plaguing outer perception. Lessons I’ve learned for both, I could not have had what I felt expressed had i not read from the site, however at first when I was fearful (the fear of god is beginning of wisdom) My emotions and inner thoughts along with after depersonalization, a numbness that sits like blanket over your eyes as result of an once overactive anxiety or mind.
Sitting in your thoughts you just end up chasing your own tail and tripping over your own dick, I was satiated only when finding lessons here, around me, etc. if you’re too in your thoughts like this person here, it’s hard to decipher lessons being shown around you. But being too in the moment leaves loss of meditation on what has been seen. Such as Joseph stated here on the site, dreaming and the contemplation of it are not separate but symbiotic, it can just be hard as ppl to be fully in the moment and conscious always as the mind wanders and you may find yourself daydreaming or caught in emotions.
I also think part of this comes from seeing through the network of the world in a way piercing through the illusion however I hadn’t really shed optimism for the world when reading from here, to me it was beautiful before and now it just looks more beautiful

[mikhey]

Knowledge must be separated from the emotions encoded by neurotransmitters, then they will flow unhindered in a continuous stream into the very essence of consciousness.