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[Black_Rose]

I dont hate.

What would my unforgivable guilt be?

[Black_Rose]

I wish everyone in the forum knew what is my terrible guilt and why, despite this guilt, you keep looking for me.

What do you want from me?

What are you looking for?

I fell in love with you.
I feel you.
You already know.
You just know everything.

There is a wonderful universe in you.

Look into my flesh eyes.
Not in plastic words.

Dare to get excited in real life, not in the movies of your mind!

Love, love, love!

Why do you hate when loving is so much more beneficial?

Why?

[Auriorusiana]

Not saying you will, you are a beautiful mature soul, more than me at this point, I’ve felt the wistfulness of an old man staring at the world he no longer wants to participate in. No unforgivable guilt, I’m saying it’s very much in human nature to reach these breaking points, whatever it be, it will find thee.
Christ even had hate, there comes a point, there always comes a breaking point. It doesn’t consume me anymore, it is just apart of what was experienced, and I use it in my meditation to right a wrong, to show someone what I felt fully if they wish to empathize feel and listen. I’ve been too angry before to empathize myself in a moment, but I get better and my effort exists where mosts are not.
If I had to ever guess, the guilt of not hating, is feeling guilty about complacency, but ive known being not complacent without hate, however some only speak a certain language, and I will admit at times I’ve been hard headed.
I can’t blame the ones before me, as the ones before them were most likely worse and this is where they picked up the pattern. And truly even in my most hateful, blind, fire fueled rage at some of the older peers in my life, I just feel sad, because they don’t know what they do, they don’t know other ways, after all we only know what we experience, only some can step outside the box and themselves.

[Auriorusiana]

Not having hate places you away from it all, and above, but it can take you out of the world. Hate is healthy, and I will always say that, hate and dislikes are needed, it doesn’t eat me as it used to, I don’t seek revenge, I seek to fix, and you can’t solve every with love despite it being the strongest force in the cosmos, you don’t have to fight using hate, yes the point is to become union, to seek to forgive at every turn, but that alone isn’t what is going to achieve

[Black_Rose]

Christ even had hate

Oh no no no!

Don't invent things you don't know, to silence your conscience!

The antipathy, the little resemblance to certain souls is understandable and makes us choices.
But hate is DESTRUCTIVE without being wise!

[Auriorusiana]

Didn’t he hate the men selling in the temple? Or the bullies? Maybe not the consciousness itself but the man certainly seemed. I don’t silence my consciousness, I don’t anymore, not matter how bad it hurts. It’s why I still talk here

[Auriorusiana]

I use my hate as a tool, as objective as I can, but as all emotions you can’t control them always. I try not to hate over petty reasons. I hate abuse, but just as I hate being abused, which is a door open for me to abuse another to prevent myself, I recognize this, but never will I stoop to level of manipulation, deceit, and physical beating I saw.

[Black_Rose]

Didn’t he hate the men selling in the temple? Or the bullies? Maybe not the consciousness itself but the man certainly seemed. I don’t silence my consciousness, I don’t anymore, not matter how bad it hurts. It’s why I still talk here

No, he didn't hate them.
He chased them away, pushed them away, but he didn't hate them.

[Auriorusiana]

Nicolaitians? Doesn’t that use the word specifically? Or is it mistranslation

[Black_Rose]

Nicolaitians? Doesn’t that use the word specifically? Or is it mistranslation

Christ let himself be killed by the merchants of the Temple.
How could he hate them?

But you, this, you should know.

[Auriorusiana]

I do.
But I am not him. I will stand up. And if that’s how I’d go out, I’d be content I’d give him them a fight, I’d be content making them know how I’ve suffered. They did it to themselves, you reap what you sow. I don’t seek hate, I don’t seek destruction, but when it finds me, or I find it, I will point it out, and fight, and let myself hate if I have to, that is human.

[Black_Rose]

You are HIM.

THEY are HIM.

[Auriorusiana]

we’re all grains of sand, all the same yet slightly structured differently

[Auriorusiana]

But how different is different, how similar is same. All in the how

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Cannot forcefully reveal what it doesn't want to reveal itself.

So I see what I see.

do me a favor don't hurt other species. even if you are of the opinion that it is so. please don't make a mistake and hate the others for not understanding it. have patience my son and the others will wake up. but don't be angry and kill the good in you

best wishes