Apollyonic Chiornistic Eros of Psyche

[Auriorusiana]

I started this thought experiment with the idea of this: “we all had the opportunity to stay with the person who we are meant for, wife, soul mate, whoever and live our lives out with them, however most have decided to play the field, as the person you are outside of a relationship holds water with the person you are when you are loyal or married”.

Tough one to word. Basically if your Highschool relationship, despite you both knowing it won’t last or you won’t marry, served as a method of learning and self discovery and eventually will service your relationship with your soul mate, then one could/even should feel inclined to leave their true lover, to travel a world of falsehoods and red herrings, to season oneself and bring more to the table whenever your true lover comes around again.

Many true lovers require a break up in fact, 90 percent of people you ask will believe this to be inevitable, a stepping stone in maturity of appreciating Love and how to let it go so it may return 10 fold. With all of this considered: One may feel inclined to leave their wife on the premise alone that it is better to spend time figuring yourself out with another who you won’t marry than to compromise your marriage by trying to make it stick despite neither of you being the people you need to be yet, whether that be an experience, style, mannerism, or another relationship for the sake of mental health.

See the story is never “she lived with me for 7 months and that’s when I realized she was the one”
The story is “here is how I met your mother”.

Whether you call this an effect of a tabula rasa, honeymoon effect, desperation of the last relationship, etc: people are most attracted to each other when they are the most individualistic, people love each other for being able to witness how they behave alone or with a spin off relationship far more than when you live together for so long your personalities begin washing and eroding each other into oblivion.

You like that girl in class not bc of actually dating her, it is the striking image of her alone waiting for you, likely if you could actually see you two together you would be unattracted to how the dynamic realistically would play out, you’re attracted to the shrodingers box of possibilities that lay before you speak a word to her. And this is the foundation and capstone of Love itself.

You demonstrate so much more Love in the ways you’d reach her/break the ice far more than your day to day dynamic of who washes dishes or not. This proves that people do not truly want or need that idealistic nuclear family white picket fence, but that it truly should come apart as a side effect of your dedication before you even speak a word to that person you intend to Love and Respect. Quite confusing for right brained individuals who believe Love is a four letter word about how much you bring to the table or how well mannered you are viewed in society, or the expectation of what your wife or husband should be and how you should think. These are commands and programming. This is the illusion of marriage that draws all moths to the flame to be reincarnated from the ashes.

Why would you not spend your time practicing Love and allowing yourself an opportunity to show all your abilities and skills of the art of compassion even with a friend before a wife? You can show the outmost respect of what Love truly is without even uttering the disrespect of incorrectly applying the word. This is the spirit and tbis is the art of the muses.

Why would you ever wait for marriage without ever questioning what marriage is? Why do we marry? Who should I marry? Who should marry me? What should I do?

All that is certain is that if you ever wanted an answer truly to these questions you would find a way to answer your wife in a manner you wished to be. Whether you have to meet several other people, hear their story, and walk that lonesome road, if it’s all to provide a simple and readily available thought experiments like these to your wife, ideas that we had to suffer and work for to find out to even utter, then you may be able to afford her less suffering, because you took upon your mantle and cross already and walked the divide. You bear witness to all of our love afflicted blisters, you learn to treat a wound, if you even love or respect the idea of a wife? You would rush head first into the field of love and hatred, and learn the dynamic, as a police officer learns to kill to serve and protect, for if you spend your time trying to only serve and protect you will kill your wife

This isn’t a game, this is reality, every fiber and atom of your being was constructed and is a product of Love. Eros, is not here to tell you to Love All and be hippy, he is here to lead you to this conclusion yourself via a contradictory warrior spirit.

And this, is Hedone. The marriage of Love and Mind. Through these gates may we see our career done in the testimony of Love and Death, the blueprints of all heroes stories of every monument, of Christ itself.

If you wait for him or her forever, it is time wasted you could’ve learned a skill or learned something of yourself in another, the time you spend holding on to a relationship that isn’t there, is time wasting finding yourself for the day the true relationship returns.

The truth is if you Love even the idea of your wife, not a person not the societal standard, how you would treat that person in your life for eternity? You would find a way to get comfortable alone and playing the field with a spouse here and a spouse there, and then maybe you can provide solace, so that she may not feel so alone whenever the conversation comes, that you may provide foundation and stability in a world of chaos, and teach him or her to do the same, together or separated, building each other up for every opportunity to betray each other and walk away into different universes, that is Love, and we do it for even the most little flings and relationships, is it too much to ask to think along these dots and lines?

Ironically the greatest way to be apart of the crowd and the whole cosmos is to learn solidarity alone, and fluidly dip in and out.

And this is why you may suffer, why you may be taken by lust, why boredom may plague your relationship, why no matter how much you have going for you without these realizations it will fail, and why even though you may with someone who isn’t your true spirit yet, you can make the most of it for everyone with these realizations, instead of running in circles, we run in figure eights.

You may not like yourself or your partner now, but know parts of you All and only All will be transferred properly to when you do like yourself and a partner.

Thus be free and prosper, seek out partners, allow them to come, if the world is a classroom whose majors are aligning? We are here to learn and achieve unity in divinity, so that one day we may not have to, and these words are spoken out of Song and art and not Life and Death, and this Art the Art.

[Auriorusiana]

Your failure will only be more room to get up, and your tower built is only a longer fall.

No matter how born of division you may be, know you are tasked with unity, and it is the highest honor, and baseline expectation of We as Creation with Spirit and Soul.

Even if you only care about a party and getting laid, good for you, go and get it, do the work, use these experiments as the philosophical art nitro glycerin that it is, learn what it means to suffer in division and to heal in unity and then you will understand, you will understand, there is infinite understanding, for you understand Infinity and infinity wills you.

This is also how all the worst people did it. How musicians groomed their children how epstein did it. Understanding grand principles of Love and comfort and healing and turning predacious.

We have a very long road ahead, we are entitled to as much finding ourselves as need be, as want be, as need be as want and want be as need.

All I’m saying is that, anyone should and would want to leave their proper spouse to escape stagnation. In immortality and stagnation lies a creature worse than death, for death there is rebirth, and stagnation there is fixed chains.

How to have your cake and eat it too