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[BeN1]

[Gonzo]

I will now make my "last online" status visible again so that everyone knows I will no longer be logging in.

greetings
BeN1

[blamblammy]

Obviously it's totally okay if you wanna withdraw yourself from this community, but what makes you think you no longer convey positivity?

[Sidewalk]

99% of truth seekers quit right before they find enlightenment...

come back soon BeN1, you will be missed <3

[Redbeck]

I hereby officially declare my withdrawal from the community.

After 10 years that have been an emotional rollercoaster,

I've unfortunately noticed that I no longer feel or convey positivity,

I've started to create half-hearted posts, and I no longer feel capable of doing anything productive or positive here. Therefore, I will now make my "last online" status visible again so that everyone knows I will no longer be logging in.

I apologize to all people I brought trouble lately and in the past,
wish this forum and all people the best for their future and after this post I won't post anymore,
so these are my last words in my last post.

greetings
BeN1

BeN1 We are sad to see you go, but why now when the world is in such turmoil and needs as much help as we can give it?
Nevertheless every remarkable human must own the latitude to make their own destiny, and we have the utmost respect for you as a creative force and the long term contributions which you have made.
No need to apologise BeN1, we will be your friend for ever and wish you well on your next journey in the hope that one day you might return, for you represent an essential building block in what we have created together over the years. We now have much work to do and you will be missed.

Fondest Regards Redbeck and DaveD





WALKING IN THE RAIN

[BeN1]

[theone]

Ben,
I know you are reading this. At some point you will. I know you will check back at least once.
I never meant to abandon you. That was not my goal. Often on the road to enlightenment there must be a time and period of solitude. I will always love you, friend. I did not mean to let you go with no word. I hope you find this peace. It is getting tiring saying "now is the time" when it is obviously not. If I had a million dollars I would help you become a king. You deserve that, my friend. I know you're still okay. I know you will check on this thread. Never lose hope or faith. There is only one truth and only one life. Never forget that.
You are my best friend. I never meant to abandon you, I just needed some time. I hope you take the time you need, because we, Eht Namuh, need you just as much. My prophetic brother, I know you will return from this Osiris box.
Not everything has to be final. Just like death...it is only the beginning.

[V3INZ]

Sad to see you go BEN! But I will forever know that you are still here, even in back when. Do taste more apples from the tree we all climb!

[BeN1]

[Redbeck]

Redbeck,
am and wasn't sure am of any importance here anymore,
but if, cause I do trust and believe you (never did not),
will step back from contributing a while, solving the said problems,
cause they are the reasons am not being positive from my heart currently
and don't want to bring negativity into a place not necessarily needed,
considering the Oracle is a place like that.

so will now say,
if the time is right (IF) will dive in here again,
when feeling better.

one thing so far,
got a past struggling with substance abuse in nrly all directions.
now, (really, don't believe it if you don't)
got clean from all stuff.

and my mental health got 'cynical'
while don't want to go back to drugs,
need to learn now being positive again from my heart and persona and not cause of substances.

this is just one of the personal problems mentioned, so now you know,
why nevertheless have to be absent for a while.
means minimum a few months.

need time proving to myself I got on the right track and don't expect the help to find here.

also, wanted to step away from being too personal always, even if it doesn't matter to me much to say and show, who I am,
currently don't even like to see myself in the mirror, so I'll step back from delivering too much personal information about myself from now on.

greetings
BeN1

Take care of yourself BeN1, I hope you can resolve your problems, any help/advice you ever need in the future, just check back into the Oracle community. Pax Vobiscum Redbeck

[BeN1]

[Gonzo]

[blamblammy]

Take care of yourself BeN1, I hope you can resolve your problems, any help/advice you ever need in the future, just check back into the Oracle community. Pax Vobiscum Redbeck

update: I retreat from my retreat officially,
cause I realized, my life doesn't get better,
when I do distance from here,
sorry my friends for being overly dramatic.
wasn't all planned.

thank you again for strengten my back.
you are all wonderful.



𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔
BeN1

Now I just hope you don’t retreat from your retreat-retreat!

[BeN1]

[Redbeck]

Excellent approach BeN1, IT IS GOOD TO HAVE YOU AROUND STILL AS OUR LONG TERM FRIEND. Peace be with you.

Redbeck and D4Dave